| Location | Aguada Puerto Rico |
| Age | 17 years |
| Cause of Death | Rare Heart Condition |
| Date of Birth | 03/12/1988 |
| Date of Death | 23/09/2006 |
| Visitors | 9,182 since 26/06/2007 |
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Joshua Renoir Perez Bonilla left to live with the lord on sept.23 06 at the age of 17. He lives on
by his mom Maria , only sis Azharia, 2 sets of grandparents ,aunts, uncles and several cousins. He
lived all his life in Aguada Puerto Rico.Joshua was a good kid healthy ,strong so smart but most of
all respectfull to all old and young. He was an animal lover and just luvd our dog nasha. At the age
of 17 he had his car but had no interest in getting his permit yet said "I have all my life to
drive" he walked to school and to work with his grandpa Jr. and was not into "PARTYING" He helped
take care of his sis while I worked it was just the 3 of us for eachother.Josh had been feeling
unwell flu lik n head aches didn't seem urgent.On Sun. Sept. 17, 06 we had a pool party for Azharia
at a near by hotel Josh helped like usual stayed so we could get ready. When I got back he was in
the pool I thought he feels better. Went home early with my mom to see a NY game. On Tues. I took
him to his Dr. she send to have some lab test. Thurs. labs say virus, rest and lots to drink. Fri.
at home ate some salmon an rice. Sat. Sept.23 06, about 1am Joshua went down stairs n was trowing up
n fell flat to the floor, in 17 y I never called his dad but this time I did his father came bathed
him gave some power aid and I took him to my room to watch over him. Within 2 hrs he was n the bath
room 3 more times blacking out, this is only the begining of my nightmare. I decides to take him to
the closest ER, 3 min away. As we got there Josh was the only patient, his blood presure was a mess,
they couldn't draw blood for several min. Yet layed him on a bed with some IVS . Startes to have
chest pains to what the Dr. said nothing and that was that the next thing I know he was sent home.
At home he could not take the pain so I called his Dr. and she sent us back to the ER, this time I
went to an other, here he was all over the floor of the pain, we waited about 40min. and where told
to wait. In my attempt to help my son I took him to a 3rd ER where they were waiting for him. At
around 11:30 am Joshua started telling me "Mom u have been so good to us and I'm going to die" "Mom,
I'm dieing the pain is to much" "Mom tell Azharia I luv here so much" u can imagine I beg for help
but was told to wait. Whwn my mother arrived he said "gradma I'm dieing" to what she went crazy and
asked why no test had been run and where told to wait. Than she told me to call a friend Dr. to see
if he could help, he was on his way to the ER I was before so I took my son again, this time his
breaths were cutting short we arrived 20min. later my son was gone forever.Autopsy natural
death/virus. No one is responsible a curupt society takes no responsibility.
On your Angel Anniversary xx
Special Angel Day - by Carmelle Gross
We do not need a special day
To bring you to our minds.
The days we do not think of you
Are very hard to find.
Each morning when we awake
We know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heartache
As we try to carry on.
Our hearts still ache with sadness
And secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know.
Our thoughts are always with you,
Your place no one can fill.
In life we loved you dearly;
In death we love you still.
There will always be a heartache,
And often a silent tear.
But always a precious memory
Of the days when you were here.
If tears would make a staircase,
And heartaches make a lane,
We'd walk the path to heaven
And bring you home again.
We hold you close within our hearts;
And there you will remain,
To walk with us throughout our lives
Until we meet again.
Our family chain is broken now,
And nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.
Thinking of you all today Maria xx
Angelversaryxxx
You are In my thoughts today Joshua,
Maria and all your loved ones
on this difficult day.
God bless you all.
Love as always Belindaxxxx
Remembering You
Your time on earth seemed all too brief
because I wanted you in my life forever.
And although I really miss you,
in my heart I know that you are at peace.
Still, countless times throughout the day
I find myself remembering you.
Although I cannot see or hear you,
I know that you are with me.
I'll feel you in the warmth of the summer sun.
I'll see you in the brilliance of autumn leaves.
You'll be beside me in the peacefulness of a gentle snowfall
and rejoice with me at the emergence
of the first flowers of spring.
I'm thankful for the times we shared
and the priceless memories too;
for those memories are a comfort now when I lovingly -
Remember You.X
♥ To Mum With Love ♥
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆
Look Mum, I’m a butterfly,
I’m the stars in the sky,
I cannot die.
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆
Watch me, now I’m free,
Look and see.
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆
Hey Mum,
I‘m the air that you breathe,
I’m the birds in the trees,
I’m the flowers and the seeds.
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆
Look Mum
I’m deep in your heart,
We’re never apart,
…I’m all around.
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆
Look Mum, I’m a butterfly,
I’m the stars in the sky,
I cannot die…
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆
By Jacky Newcomb
19th September xxx
The Mention of His Name Anon
The mention of my child's name
May bring tears to my eyes,
But it never fails to bring
Music to my ears.
If you are really my friend,
Let me hear the beautiful music of his name,
It soothes my broken heart
And sings to my soul.
Candles in the Night
Candles flame in darkness,
Flicker, steadily glow,
Bringing light from shadows
And help to soothe me so.
My son, like the candles,
Gave my life true light,
I use the candle's beacon
To connect us in the night.
As I light the candles,
My wish and my request
Is that he'll see my signal
And know my love's expressed.
As his light joins my lights,
Our worlds touch and flame.
As I snuff out the candles,
I softly say his name.
By Genesse Bourdeau Gentry
Think of eyes that sparkle bright
think of sunshine, think of light.
Think of things that make you smile,
we think of our loved ones all the while.xx
Son I have been away for a while but you are never forgotten. I am counting done these dredfull days as it will be three years my life was changed to never be the same again. I love you and will be back soon.
AN ANGEL IS WATCHING OVER YOU
An angel walks beside me,
I feel him everyday,
he helps me through lives ups and downs,
and whatever comes my way.
He guides me down the road of life,
and lights the darkest roads,
he picks me up and carries me,
when I can not bear the load.
He helps to ease the pain I feel,
he mends my spirit, too,
he holds my hand, and shelters me,
and gives me courage and strength, too.
He speaks to me with words of love,
and he listens to my pleas,
he was sent here from the lord above,
to guide and comfort me.
I know he's always watching,
though his form I can not see,
its a peace I feel deep in my heart,
that leads me to believe.
An angel walks beside me,
I feel blessed everyday,
that the presence of this angel,
will never go away.
BEAUTIFUL JOSH
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.............((............ A ray of sunshine came & went
.............) \........... A beautiful treasure only lent
............( , ).......... A prayer
.........._ `|'_......... A tear
...........| () ||........ A memory so dear
...........|.....||....... Each day of our lives
...........|.....||........We wish you were here
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Light a candle for those we mourn.
Into a new life they will be born.
Do not look for them at the gravesite.
They are somewhere else radiating their beautiful light.
They have gone to a new world where there is no darkness, no pain.
Their light and essence will always remain.
Light a candle for those who have left this mortal place.
They are free to travel through time and space.
When we think of them, they are near.
When we sit in a beautiful garden. Their voices we hear.
When we listen to a divine symphony,
We close our eyes, their faces we see.
Light a candle for they have not really gone.
With each flickering flame, in your hearts they will always belong
All My Love Gloria Anthony's Mom xoxo
The Pit of Grief
The day my child died, I fell into the pit of grief. My friends watched me struggle through daily life; waiting for the person I once was to arise from the pit, not realizing 'she' is gone forever.
The pit is full of darkness, heartache and despair; it paralyzes your thoughts, movements and ability to ration. The pit leaves you forever changed, unable to surface the person you once were.
Some of my pre-grief friends gather around the top of the pit, waiting for the old me to appear before their eyes, not understanding what’s taking me so long to emerge. After all, in their eyes, I’ve been in the pit for quite sometime. Yet in my eyes, it seems as if I fell in only yesterday.
Not all of my pre-grief friends are gathered around the top of the pit. Some are helping me with the climb out of the darkness. They climb side by side with me from time to time, but mostly they climb ahead of me, waiting patiently at each plateau. Even with these friends I sometimes wonder if they are also waiting for the pre-grief me to magically appear before their eyes.
Then there are the casual acquaintances, you know the ones who say 'Hi, how are you?' when they really don't care or really want to know. These are the people who sigh in relief, that is my child who died and not theirs. You know ... the 'better them, than me' attitude.
My post-grief friends are the ones who climb with me, side by side, inch by inch, out of the pit of grief. They have no way of comparing the pit climbed to the pre-grief person I once was. You see, they started at the bottom of the pit with me. They are able to reassure me when I need reassurance, rest when I need resting, and encourage me to move forward when I don't have the strength. They have no expectations, no memories and no recollection of how I 'should' be. They want me to get better, to smile more often and find joy in life, but they also accepted the person I’ve become. The 'person' who is emerging from the pit.
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