| Location | Aguada Puerto Rico |
| Age | 17 years |
| Cause of Death | Rare Heart Condition |
| Date of Birth | 03/12/1988 |
| Date of Death | 23/09/2006 |
| Visitors | 9,180 since 26/06/2007 |
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Joshua Renoir Perez Bonilla left to live with the lord on sept.23 06 at the age of 17. He lives on
by his mom Maria , only sis Azharia, 2 sets of grandparents ,aunts, uncles and several cousins. He
lived all his life in Aguada Puerto Rico.Joshua was a good kid healthy ,strong so smart but most of
all respectfull to all old and young. He was an animal lover and just luvd our dog nasha. At the age
of 17 he had his car but had no interest in getting his permit yet said "I have all my life to
drive" he walked to school and to work with his grandpa Jr. and was not into "PARTYING" He helped
take care of his sis while I worked it was just the 3 of us for eachother.Josh had been feeling
unwell flu lik n head aches didn't seem urgent.On Sun. Sept. 17, 06 we had a pool party for Azharia
at a near by hotel Josh helped like usual stayed so we could get ready. When I got back he was in
the pool I thought he feels better. Went home early with my mom to see a NY game. On Tues. I took
him to his Dr. she send to have some lab test. Thurs. labs say virus, rest and lots to drink. Fri.
at home ate some salmon an rice. Sat. Sept.23 06, about 1am Joshua went down stairs n was trowing up
n fell flat to the floor, in 17 y I never called his dad but this time I did his father came bathed
him gave some power aid and I took him to my room to watch over him. Within 2 hrs he was n the bath
room 3 more times blacking out, this is only the begining of my nightmare. I decides to take him to
the closest ER, 3 min away. As we got there Josh was the only patient, his blood presure was a mess,
they couldn't draw blood for several min. Yet layed him on a bed with some IVS . Startes to have
chest pains to what the Dr. said nothing and that was that the next thing I know he was sent home.
At home he could not take the pain so I called his Dr. and she sent us back to the ER, this time I
went to an other, here he was all over the floor of the pain, we waited about 40min. and where told
to wait. In my attempt to help my son I took him to a 3rd ER where they were waiting for him. At
around 11:30 am Joshua started telling me "Mom u have been so good to us and I'm going to die" "Mom,
I'm dieing the pain is to much" "Mom tell Azharia I luv here so much" u can imagine I beg for help
but was told to wait. Whwn my mother arrived he said "gradma I'm dieing" to what she went crazy and
asked why no test had been run and where told to wait. Than she told me to call a friend Dr. to see
if he could help, he was on his way to the ER I was before so I took my son again, this time his
breaths were cutting short we arrived 20min. later my son was gone forever.Autopsy natural
death/virus. No one is responsible a curupt society takes no responsibility.
I am now in Heaven,
The gates have opened wide,
And now I have the privilege
Of walking by His side.
The angel choir is singing
And the music is so sweet;
I'll join them just as soon
As I have worshiped at His feet.
I am now in Heaven,
The blood washed throng is here;
I recognize a lot of them,
There's not a single tear.
There's joy beyond description
And reunions by the score;
There'll be no more separations,
For we'll be here evermore.
I am now in Heaven,
Please wipe away your tears;
I've fought the battle, run the race,
And I'm rid of all my fears.
There is no pain or sorrow here,
The heartaches now are past;
I've read and sung of Heaven,
And now I'm here at last!
I am now in Heaven,
And oh, this place is grand!
No one could have ever told me
Of all the beauty in this land.
Since I cannot describe it,
You'll have to come and see
That it was worth the many trials
To live here for all eternity!
ALL MY LOVE SWEET ANGEL, WITH LOTS OF (((HUGS))) AND KISSES. LOVE ALWAYS GLORIA ANTHONY'S MOM
You're A Special Little Spirit
"You're a Special Little Spirit," the all great Master said,
As he gently caressed the curly blond hair of the Little Spirit's Head.
"you need to go to Earth to spend some time, you know,
A place I send most Spirits to be tested, to learn, to grow.
The Little Spirit, in sadness, slowly bowed his head,
And from his eye a tear did steal and down his cheek it shed.
"Don't you fret now little one, I won't let you stay too long,
I'll bring you back to help me here, You'll hardly know you've been gone.
You're my choicest Little Spirit, you're the apple of my eye."
And he wiped the tear and gently kissed His Little Spirit good-bye.
"I'm back," the Little Spirit whispered, as he climbed onto his Master's knee,
And the Master said, "I told you, you would not be long away from me."
And then, the Lord, He noticed still another tear welled in his eye.
"Why are you so sad, Little Spirit, whatever should make you cry?"
"I'm glad I'm back," the Spirit said, "but Master you must surely know,
When your angel came to get me, I didn't want to go.
I know you said you needed me and that I'd be gone the shortest while,
But Lord, couldn't I have had a little longer earthly trial?"
The Master let the Little Spirit slip down from His knee,
He firmly took the little hand and said,"Come walk with me."
The Little Spirit and his Lord walked slowly hand in hand,
As the Master explained His special part in the great and marvelous plan.
"Now Lord, I don't mean to argue, I understand you need me home.
But I left in such a hurry, I left everyone hurting and so alone.
I didn't let my earthly parents know how much I loved them so.
I was much too small to tell them, Lord, how will they ever know?
They feel they've been cheated, and in a way so do I.
Not getting to share any more than we did, how can I ever tell them why?"
"Little Spirit, I know your heart is heavy with the message you need to share.
But you need not worry anymore, I'll watch over your loved ones there.
I'll send them loving comfort as a strong and helping hand.
I'll content and give peace to their aching hearts, so they will understand.
The Little Spirit looked up at his Master and said "Thank you for explaining it to me.
And could you please tell them I'm safe and happy and that someday they'll be here with me."
"Yes," said the Lord with a smile and a nod, "I'll tell them all that I can."
Then the others came to see the Little Spirit, as the Lord let go of his hand.
He said, "I'll tell them you're pure, as pure as Heaven's Gold,
That I needed the warmth of your perfect soul to keep Heaven from getting cold."
Author Unknown
Mother & Son
We are connected my child and I
By an invisible cord not seen by the eye
It's not like the cord that connects you at birth
This cord can't be seen by any on earth
This cord does it work, right from the start
It binds us together, attached to my heart
I know that it's there, though no one can see
This invisible cord from my child to me
The strength of this cord is hard to describe
It can't be destroyed, it can't be denied
Its stronger than any cord man could create
It withstands the test, can hold any weight
And though you are gone, though you're not here with me
The cord is still there but no one can see
It pulls at my heart, I am bruised ~ I am sore
But this cord is my lifeline as never before
I am thankful that God connects us this way
A mother and child death can't take away
In my thoughts and prayers. Love Liz, Stuart's mum xx
*❃* I’m Every Place *❃*
✻ ❃ ✻ ❃ ✻ ❃ ✻ ❃ ✻ ❃ ✻ ❃ ✻ ❃
I'm every place, don't mourn for me
I'm still here, though you don't see
I'm right by your side each night and day
And within your heart I long to stay
My body is gone but I'm always near
I'm everything you feel, see or hear
My spirit is free, but I'll never depart
As long as you keep me alive in your heart
I'll never wander out of your sight
I'm the brightest star on a summer night
I'll never be beyond your reach
I'm the warm moist sand when you're at the beach
I'm the colourful leaves when fall comes around
And the pure white snow that blankets the ground
I'm the beautiful flowers of which you're so fond
The clear cool water in a quiet pond
I'm the first bright blossom you'll see in spring
The first warm raindrop that April will bring
I'm the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine
And you'll see that the face in the moon is mine
When you start thinking there's no one to love you
You can talk to me through the Lord above you
I'll whisper my answer through the leaves on the trees
And you'll feel my presence in the soft summer breeze
I'm the hot salty tears that flow when you weep
And the beautiful dreams that come while you sleep
I'm the smile you see on a baby's face
Just look for me,
I'm everyplace
✻ ❃ ✻ ❃ ✻ ❃ ✻ ❃ ✻ ❃ ✻ ❃ ✻ ❃
Unknown
Thinking of you.XXX
The Four Candles
The four candles burned slowly
Their ambiance was so soft you
Could hear them speak.......
The first candle said “I am peace, but these days, no one wants to keep me lit.”
Then peace’s flame slowly diminishes and goes out completely.
The second candle said “I am Faith, but these days, I am no longer indispensable.”
Then Faith’s flame slowly diminishes and goes out completely.
Sadly the third candle spoke “I am Love and I haven’t the strength to stay lit any longer.” “People put me aside and don’t understand my importance. They even forget to love those who are nearest to them.”
And waiting no longer, Love goes out completely.
Suddenly........
A child enters the room and sees the three candles no longer burning.
The child begins to cry, “Why are you not burning? You are supposed to stay lit until the end.”
Then the fourth candle spoke gently to the little boy, “Don’t be afraid, for I am Hope, and while I still burn, we can re-light the other candles.”
With shining eyes the child took the candle of Hope and lit the other three candles.
Never let the Flame of Hope go out in your life.
Dream... Dreamers... Dream
~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~ *~♥x♥~
A loving angel came to me in dreams.
She showed me life's not always what it seems
And brought me to a place where sweet dreams live.
She gave to me a gift that I now give . . .
A dreamer's dream.
She whispered, "Take my hand and I will lead you through
A place where only sweet dreams can come true.
Close your eyes and open up your heart,
For then this flight of dreams so sweet can start.
Dream, Dreamer, Dream."
She brought me through the darkness to the Light
Where colors wrapped around me, such delight,
A patchwork quilt of beauty without seams
Each color was a rainbow full of dreams,
Dreamer's dreams.
She led me through a hallway of pure sound
With doors flung open widely all around.
And from each room a song would gently play,
I wished with all my heart that I could stay
In this dreamer's dream.
But we drifted in the fragrance of the breeze
To savor all the flowers and the trees.
We tasted all of life that we could see
And felt it flow as one in harmony...
We dreamed this dreamer's dream.
Then my angel turned her eyes to me and said,
"You are the Keeper of these Dreams inside your head.
Find sweet dreamers who would dream of Love and Light,
These dreams will lead them safely through the night.
Help these dreamers dream."
And so I am the Keeper of this Dream, it's true,
But I offer all my dreams to each of you.
May their loving sweetness visit you each night
And fill your soul with Love and Warmth and Light.
Dream, Dreamers, Dream!
~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~ *~♥x♥~
(By Robert Alan)
ALL MY LOVE BEAUTIFUL JOSH, SORRY FOR THE LACK OF CANDLES. MY KIDS GO BACK TO SCHOOL AT THE END OF THE WEEK, SO MAYBE I WILL BE ABLE TO SPEND MORE TIME ONLINE.THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT. I HOPE YOU HAVE A DREAMERS DREAM TOO MARIA. ALL MY LOVE GLORIA ANTHONY MOM XOXO
Still Missing You
They say there is a reason
They say that time will heal
But neither time nor reason
Will change the way we feel.
For no one knows the heartache
that lies behind our smiles,
No one knows how many times
we have broken down and cried.
We want to tell you something
so there won't be any doubt,
You're so wonderful to think of
but so hard to be without.
We cannot bring the old days back,
when we were all together
The family chain is broken now,
but memories live forever.
Unknown
SORRY FOR THE LACK OF CANDLES, STILL TRYING TO GET ME ACT TOGETHER. MY HEAD IS SPINNING ALL THE TIME. SO I'M SEND YOU SO MUCH EXTRA LOVE. ALL MY LOVE GLORIA ANTHONY'S MOM XOXO
BUTTERFLY WINGS
In a green meadow filled with Milkweed and flowers there lived a colony of
caterpillars. They were a happy colony, living a quiet life in the cool
shade. For many months they were very busy,
scurrying around and munching on the soft Milkweed leaves.
They did notice that every once in a while one of the colony seemed to lose
interest in crawling around with its friends. It would go off alone and
crawl high up in the trees. It gradually moved out of sight and was seen no
more.
“Look!” said one of the caterpillars to another, “one of our colony is
climbing up to the tops of the trees. Where do you think he is going?” Up,
up and up it slowly went…even as they watched, the caterpillar disappeared
from sight. Its friends waited and waited but it didn’t return.
“That’s funny!” said one caterpillar to another. “Wasn’t he happy here?”
asked another. “Where do you suppose he went ?” wondered a third. No one
had an answer. They were greatly puzzled.
Finally one of the caterpillars gathered its friends together. “I have an
idea. The next one of us who climbs to the tops of the trees must promise
to come back and tell us where he or she went and why.”
“We promise…” they all said solemnly.
One spring day not long after the caterpillar who had suggested the plan
found himself climbing high up into the trees. Up up and up he went, higher
and higher into the trees. Before he knew what was happening he had broken
through the canopy of leaves into the warm sunlight and fell into a deep
sleep.
When he awoke he looked about in surprise. He couldn’t believe what he saw.
A startling change had come over his old body. He now had beautiful wings!
Even as he struggled he felt an impulse to move his wings. The warmth of
the sun soon dried the moisture from his new body. He moved his wings again
and suddenly found himself flying into the blue sky.
He had become a butterfly. Swooping and dipping in great curves he flew
through the air. He felt exhilarated in the new atmosphere.
By and by the new butterfly landed on a leaf to rest. Then it was that he
chanced to look below to the bottom of the meadow. Why, he was right above
his old friends the caterpillars! There they were, crawling around and munching on Milkweed, just as he had been doing before.
Then the butterfly remembered his promise. Without thinking the butterfly
darted down. He landed on a flower and looked into the grass. Now that he
was a butterfly he could no longer go back.
“I can’t return!” he said in dismay. “At least I tried, but I can’t keep
my promise. Even if I could go back, not one of the caterpillars would know
me in my new body. I guess I’ll just have to wait until they become
butterflies too. Then they’ll understand what has happened to me and where
I went.”
And the butterfly winged off happily into its new world of sun and air.
Dear God, please remember those who have left the meadow we live in…and
remember us who are still here.
I would like to Thank you, from the bottom of my Heart for watching over my baby and my Dad, while I was gone. Had a really nice time with Samantha and lots of tears too. I really liked her. With all my love Gloria Anthony's Mom XOXO
My beautiful son I am so sorry I have been feeling unwell. You know I have you in my heart every instant of the day. They say time heals everything I just can't see how. I love you so much. I have bben caring for your sister and Jaycob and have thisfeling of emptyness, I know you are missing and I just can't understand. I love you so much you are eternal missing love. I love you..
THIS LITTLE CANDLE
I lit a candle tonight, in honor of you
Remembering your life, and all the times we'd been through.
Such a small little light the candle made
Until I realized how much in darkness it lit the way.
All the tears I've cried in all my grief and pain
What a garden they grew, watered with human rain.
I sometimes can't see beyond the moment, in hopeless despair.
But then your memory sustains me, in heartaches repair.
I can wait for the tomorrow, when my sorrows ease
Until then I'll light this candle, and let my memories run free.
Have a wonderful weekend. All my Love. Happy 4th of July. Love Gloria Anthony's Mom xoxo
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