| Location | Aguada Puerto Rico |
| Age | 17 years |
| Cause of Death | Rare Heart Condition |
| Date of Birth | 03/12/1988 |
| Date of Death | 23/09/2006 |
| Visitors | 9,218 since 26/06/2007 |
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Joshua Renoir Perez Bonilla left to live with the lord on sept.23 06 at the age of 17. He lives on
by his mom Maria , only sis Azharia, 2 sets of grandparents ,aunts, uncles and several cousins. He
lived all his life in Aguada Puerto Rico.Joshua was a good kid healthy ,strong so smart but most of
all respectfull to all old and young. He was an animal lover and just luvd our dog nasha. At the age
of 17 he had his car but had no interest in getting his permit yet said "I have all my life to
drive" he walked to school and to work with his grandpa Jr. and was not into "PARTYING" He helped
take care of his sis while I worked it was just the 3 of us for eachother.Josh had been feeling
unwell flu lik n head aches didn't seem urgent.On Sun. Sept. 17, 06 we had a pool party for Azharia
at a near by hotel Josh helped like usual stayed so we could get ready. When I got back he was in
the pool I thought he feels better. Went home early with my mom to see a NY game. On Tues. I took
him to his Dr. she send to have some lab test. Thurs. labs say virus, rest and lots to drink. Fri.
at home ate some salmon an rice. Sat. Sept.23 06, about 1am Joshua went down stairs n was trowing up
n fell flat to the floor, in 17 y I never called his dad but this time I did his father came bathed
him gave some power aid and I took him to my room to watch over him. Within 2 hrs he was n the bath
room 3 more times blacking out, this is only the begining of my nightmare. I decides to take him to
the closest ER, 3 min away. As we got there Josh was the only patient, his blood presure was a mess,
they couldn't draw blood for several min. Yet layed him on a bed with some IVS . Startes to have
chest pains to what the Dr. said nothing and that was that the next thing I know he was sent home.
At home he could not take the pain so I called his Dr. and she sent us back to the ER, this time I
went to an other, here he was all over the floor of the pain, we waited about 40min. and where told
to wait. In my attempt to help my son I took him to a 3rd ER where they were waiting for him. At
around 11:30 am Joshua started telling me "Mom u have been so good to us and I'm going to die" "Mom,
I'm dieing the pain is to much" "Mom tell Azharia I luv here so much" u can imagine I beg for help
but was told to wait. Whwn my mother arrived he said "gradma I'm dieing" to what she went crazy and
asked why no test had been run and where told to wait. Than she told me to call a friend Dr. to see
if he could help, he was on his way to the ER I was before so I took my son again, this time his
breaths were cutting short we arrived 20min. later my son was gone forever.Autopsy natural
death/virus. No one is responsible a curupt society takes no responsibility.
I wear a pair of shoes
They are ugly shoes
Uncomfortable shoes
I hate my shoes
Each day I wear them and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step
Yet, I continue to wear them
I get funny looks wearing these shoes
They are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not their's
They never talk about my shoes
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realize I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in this world.
Some women are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt
No woman deserves to wear these shoes
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.
i send my love to your family, as you did to mine. i feel for your daughter and know her pain, losing someone so close at such a young age is heartbreaking. you will both find strength from each other and i'm sure that heaven and your son await you with open arms
xXxXx
Today I woke up hurting as Sat. bring back such sad memories, I am so sorry I couldn't see you were dieing just like you said you were, I am so sorry that as your mother I should have known yet I didn't. I was watching slip away in front of my own eyes. I am so sorry. I thnk of you and my soul hurts , my beautiful son... it gets so hard playing this role of being OK when all I really feel is this constant hurt, lonelyness.
You are me my love and I will never stop loving you or forget your love for me, you loved me in such a special way a way I will never be loved again. I miss you with all my life,
Joshua my luv haven't been feeling well missing your voice and that beautiful smile, I am trying I really am, I just can't understand how I can move on when my heart is hurting so much, this part of me that went with you can never come back. Your luv for me was so special, you made sure I was always OK. I miss your luv for me I miss it so much. You are my pride and joy. i luv you.
Rest In Peace
Again i am here to say thank you, your messages keep coming and they bring me great comfort. i'd like you to know, maria, that i think of you and your son often. as i do of my beloved daughter, hannh. it feels like eternity without her, so i hope to know just a little of how it feels for you and joshua. i know he will be in heaven with hannah and they will be friends. they will be thinking of us often, as we are with them. wanting to hold us, but knowing they can't. i hope someday that i will be able to bring you comfort, maria. you are an inspirational person. please do not give up
lots of love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
everyday has something that reminds me of you leaving. on a 28th you were sent to rest a day my eyes saw you for the last time. even then i don't believe i understood what was happening, out of my sight forever, you my beautiful son, my only son, my first. as the days months and years go by in front of others i learn to act like what they want me to be and when i am alone i return to heart broken mother i am and will forever be. i realse the trears i hold back for the sake of others. you were everything a mother could ask for loving, honest, caring, quiet, smart and over all respectfull. i luv you so much son and i will forever have this pain in my soul. NOTHING EVER will be able to heal my pain. you ans azharia are the most wonderful thing that has happened to me. i will forever miss you and will luv you eternally.
my son how do i understand lossing you, why are you so far away, taken from me so soon i can't i can't understand. every instant i feel you missing my sweet child
I thought I ahd forgotten / Ariana Chaparro (Dou u remember me in heaven? )
I thought i Had forgotten
that it was time to let go
but as soon as I saw your picture
bitter tears began to flow.
I can never let you go,
no matter how hard I try
whenever i think it's over
your memory reaches my mind.
It's so hard to see, your mom in so much pain
after she was so good always
was this the price she paid?
The price of loss so grand
and Maria I understand,
because the loss of a son like an angel,
is not easy to withstand.
I also miss him dearly
thinking of all the things
that here in college would have happened
and now they never will.
I feel afraid and paranoid sometimes
of what can happen every day,
Angels are leaveing the earth so much
to take a place in the sky
If someone so great was taken
what will happen to the rest of us?
I didn't intend to make this like a poem, it just kinda rhymed. I guess whe you want to write something pretty for someone you love, it happens most of the time. Maria i do understand, that two years later the pain doesnt fade. Because i was just a friend and the pain never leaves me either. We just have to be strong, because thats what he would have wanted
r.i.p
No puedo expresar mi pena para usted, espero que usted pueda encontrar el pedazo que sabe que su alma vivira en el interior usted y sus amigos. El parecio amarle muchísimo tan aprecie a su joshua memory.r.i.p
Thankyou
thankyou for the thoughtful, kind messages you continue to leave on my daughter's page. i miss her terribly. the reason i dont always answer back is not because im ignorant, it's because im still hurting. it hurts to go on here and look at a memorial page, knowing its my daughter. thankyou so much for the support you've given me, its much appreciated.
i would also like to say that i am so sorry about josh's great grandma, i'm sure they've found each other. i'm sorry you have to feel so much pain.
i'll be thinking of you with kind thoughts
mary jonty xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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