| Location | Aguada Puerto Rico |
| Age | 17 years |
| Cause of Death | Rare Heart Condition |
| Date of Birth | 03/12/1988 |
| Date of Death | 23/09/2006 |
| Visitors | 9,216 since 26/06/2007 |
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Joshua Renoir Perez Bonilla left to live with the lord on sept.23 06 at the age of 17. He lives on
by his mom Maria , only sis Azharia, 2 sets of grandparents ,aunts, uncles and several cousins. He
lived all his life in Aguada Puerto Rico.Joshua was a good kid healthy ,strong so smart but most of
all respectfull to all old and young. He was an animal lover and just luvd our dog nasha. At the age
of 17 he had his car but had no interest in getting his permit yet said "I have all my life to
drive" he walked to school and to work with his grandpa Jr. and was not into "PARTYING" He helped
take care of his sis while I worked it was just the 3 of us for eachother.Josh had been feeling
unwell flu lik n head aches didn't seem urgent.On Sun. Sept. 17, 06 we had a pool party for Azharia
at a near by hotel Josh helped like usual stayed so we could get ready. When I got back he was in
the pool I thought he feels better. Went home early with my mom to see a NY game. On Tues. I took
him to his Dr. she send to have some lab test. Thurs. labs say virus, rest and lots to drink. Fri.
at home ate some salmon an rice. Sat. Sept.23 06, about 1am Joshua went down stairs n was trowing up
n fell flat to the floor, in 17 y I never called his dad but this time I did his father came bathed
him gave some power aid and I took him to my room to watch over him. Within 2 hrs he was n the bath
room 3 more times blacking out, this is only the begining of my nightmare. I decides to take him to
the closest ER, 3 min away. As we got there Josh was the only patient, his blood presure was a mess,
they couldn't draw blood for several min. Yet layed him on a bed with some IVS . Startes to have
chest pains to what the Dr. said nothing and that was that the next thing I know he was sent home.
At home he could not take the pain so I called his Dr. and she sent us back to the ER, this time I
went to an other, here he was all over the floor of the pain, we waited about 40min. and where told
to wait. In my attempt to help my son I took him to a 3rd ER where they were waiting for him. At
around 11:30 am Joshua started telling me "Mom u have been so good to us and I'm going to die" "Mom,
I'm dieing the pain is to much" "Mom tell Azharia I luv here so much" u can imagine I beg for help
but was told to wait. Whwn my mother arrived he said "gradma I'm dieing" to what she went crazy and
asked why no test had been run and where told to wait. Than she told me to call a friend Dr. to see
if he could help, he was on his way to the ER I was before so I took my son again, this time his
breaths were cutting short we arrived 20min. later my son was gone forever.Autopsy natural
death/virus. No one is responsible a curupt society takes no responsibility.
more pain
this week has been so hard abuela(greatgrandma) has joined you, papi (grandad) is devestaded so much loss in such short time. many of your greataunts came and visited your resting place, for me it was so painful.
I luv you son more than words can say your as much of a part of me as the day you were born. I miss you so life has lost it's shine. You are the most beautiful angel. Hopefully I can become as good as you.
To My Dearest Friends
To my dearest family, some things id like to say,
But first of all to let you know that ive arrived okay
Im writing this from heaven where i dwell with God above,
Where there is no more tears or sadness, theres just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy just because i am out of sight.
Remember i am with you every morning noon and night.
That day i had to leave when my life on earth was through.
God picked me up and hugged me and said 'I welcome you'
Then God gave me a list of things that he wished me to do.
And foremost on the list of mine was to watch and care for you.
And i will be beside you every day and week and year.
And when you are sad i am standing there to wipe away the tear.
But do not be afraid to cry-it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers unless there was some rain.
When your walking down the street and youve got me on your mind.
Im walking in your foosteps only half a step behind.
And when you feel that gentle breeze or wind upon your face.
That is me giving you a great big hug or just a small embrace.
And when it is time for you to go from that body to be free.
Remember your not going, you are coming here to me.
my soul hurts to know you are gone forever, how i wish i could hear your voice just once more and tell you i luv you so. i miss you i miss everything about you. how does this hurt go away if i luv you so much. my sweet son ...
In the light
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♥~ In The Light ~♥
A shadow of joy flickered; it is me.
I told you I wouldn't leave.
My spirit is with you.
My memories, my thoughts are
imbedded deep in your heart.
I still love you.
Do not for one moment think
that you have been abandoned.
I am in the Light.
In the corner,
in the hall,
the car,
the yard --
these are the places I stay with you.
My spirit rises every time you pray for me,
but my energy comes closer to you.
Love does not diminish,
it grows stronger.
I am the feather that finds you in the yard,
the dimmed light that grows brighter
in your mind,
I place our memories for you to see.
We lived in our special way,
a way that now has its focus changed.
I still crave your understanding and
long for the many words of prayer
and good fortune for my soul.
I am in the Light.
As you struggle to adjust without me,
I watch silently.
Sometimes I summon up all the strength
of my new world
to make you notice me.
Impressed by your grief,
I try to impress my love
deeper into your consciousness.
As you should,
I call out to the Heavens for help.
You should know that the fountain of youth
does exist.
My soul is now healthy.
Your love sends me new found energy.
I am adjusting to this new world.
I am with you and I am in the Light.
Please don't feel bad that you can't see me.
I am with you wherever you go.
I protect you,
just as you protected me so many times.
Talk to me and somehow I will
find a way to answer you.
Mother, father, son or daughter
it makes no difference.
Brother, sister, lover,
husband or wife, it makes no difference.
Whatever our connection-friend or even foe-
I see you with my new eyes.
I am learning to help wherever you are,
where ever I am needed.
This can be done because I am in the Light.
When you feel despair, reach out to me.
I will come.
Our love for you truly does
transcend from Heaven to Earth.
Finish your life with the enthusiasm and zest
that you had when we were together
in the physical sense.
You owe this to me, but more importantly,
you owe it to yourself.
Life continues for both of us.
I am with you because I love you
and I am in the Light.
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My thoughts are with your family xxx
my sweet son
i can't help but cry as i have existed 1 year and 6 months now. i have done what is expected of me continue but this hurt i have can not be intertained it is there every instant. i can feel your absence and it's a feeling of pain, pain only a mother can feel. i miss you so much your luving eyes that spoke the words you didin't. i try not to ask why yet i can't help thinking why why my son. how do i get better if my luv for you can never change. my son my beautiful son. i will never stop missing you my life will never be the same.
you are and will always be my pride and joy. i luv you so!!!
mami
my sweet son i have done your room i am sure you would like the colors, it hurt to see it leave as i knew it, it seemed a part of you were on those walls. but i am sure this would have been perfect for you. i love son i miss you everyday of my existence. we are going to take a fam picture tomarrow you'll be there your so much luvd guitar will be by our side. i am so sorry son. i luv you soo.
i wear a pair of shoes
They are ugly shoes
Uncomfortable shoes
I hate my shoes
Each day I wear them and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step
Yet, I continue to wear them
I get funny looks wearing these shoes
They are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not their's
They never talk about my shoes
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realize I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in this world.
Some women are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt
No woman deserves to wear these shoes
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child
saturday 23
i have felt sick all morning just knowing today is an other saturday 23, i relieve each second of that terrible day i lost you. how was it i didin't know those would be the last hours with you. why didin't i hear your words. my sweet son i would give anything just to have you here again.
i am so sorry i didin't understand your pain, i luv and miss you so much, life will never be the same.
we luv you , we luv you
Hiya Gorgeous
I really hope you've seen Hannah up there, and i hope your looking after her like your beautiful, kind mother is looking after me. You and her truly are inspirational and I would like to say a big thankyou to both of you for just being you.
'for those who still have their children,
treat them with tender care,
for you will never know the emptiness,
until you turn and they're not there'
Im sure your mom misses you very much. Sleep tight xxxxxxxxxxx
Thinking of you & your family
I just wanted to add my tribute to your wonderful son. I also lost my own son very suddenly in hospital and although we know he had Leukaemia (diagnosed just 36 hours before he died) we still have a lot of unanswered questions as to why it happened to him and so quickly. I hope you can find some answers to what happened to your boy and then some peace in your heart. I know how awful it is to lose your darling boy. With love, Sam x
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