| Location | Aguada Puerto Rico |
| Age | 17 years |
| Cause of Death | Rare Heart Condition |
| Date of Birth | 03/12/1988 |
| Date of Death | 23/09/2006 |
| Visitors | 9,215 since 26/06/2007 |
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Joshua Renoir Perez Bonilla left to live with the lord on sept.23 06 at the age of 17. He lives on
by his mom Maria , only sis Azharia, 2 sets of grandparents ,aunts, uncles and several cousins. He
lived all his life in Aguada Puerto Rico.Joshua was a good kid healthy ,strong so smart but most of
all respectfull to all old and young. He was an animal lover and just luvd our dog nasha. At the age
of 17 he had his car but had no interest in getting his permit yet said "I have all my life to
drive" he walked to school and to work with his grandpa Jr. and was not into "PARTYING" He helped
take care of his sis while I worked it was just the 3 of us for eachother.Josh had been feeling
unwell flu lik n head aches didn't seem urgent.On Sun. Sept. 17, 06 we had a pool party for Azharia
at a near by hotel Josh helped like usual stayed so we could get ready. When I got back he was in
the pool I thought he feels better. Went home early with my mom to see a NY game. On Tues. I took
him to his Dr. she send to have some lab test. Thurs. labs say virus, rest and lots to drink. Fri.
at home ate some salmon an rice. Sat. Sept.23 06, about 1am Joshua went down stairs n was trowing up
n fell flat to the floor, in 17 y I never called his dad but this time I did his father came bathed
him gave some power aid and I took him to my room to watch over him. Within 2 hrs he was n the bath
room 3 more times blacking out, this is only the begining of my nightmare. I decides to take him to
the closest ER, 3 min away. As we got there Josh was the only patient, his blood presure was a mess,
they couldn't draw blood for several min. Yet layed him on a bed with some IVS . Startes to have
chest pains to what the Dr. said nothing and that was that the next thing I know he was sent home.
At home he could not take the pain so I called his Dr. and she sent us back to the ER, this time I
went to an other, here he was all over the floor of the pain, we waited about 40min. and where told
to wait. In my attempt to help my son I took him to a 3rd ER where they were waiting for him. At
around 11:30 am Joshua started telling me "Mom u have been so good to us and I'm going to die" "Mom,
I'm dieing the pain is to much" "Mom tell Azharia I luv here so much" u can imagine I beg for help
but was told to wait. Whwn my mother arrived he said "gradma I'm dieing" to what she went crazy and
asked why no test had been run and where told to wait. Than she told me to call a friend Dr. to see
if he could help, he was on his way to the ER I was before so I took my son again, this time his
breaths were cutting short we arrived 20min. later my son was gone forever.Autopsy natural
death/virus. No one is responsible a curupt society takes no responsibility.
my sweet son have you in my thoughts every instant. miss having you around I wonder if you would ahve had a girlfriend this year, she would have got the best present your were so generous. I am sorry you missed out on so much. I luv you son i love you.
my sweet
days, months, even more than a year has gone by and as time passes I ask myself why am i still alive?? as the world around me hasn't stoped and i continue to do as accepected of me the part of me that was ripped away will never be back. Joshua my luv every instant when other may think ' shes doing better ' I have the pain constantly reminding me I will never hear you call me MOMMY , that your room as become a cold lonely place where your things wait for you to come back. How did I become this fake person that finds a way to smile on the outside while my soul hasn't stopped crying. How is it that the people that say they know and luv me don't see i am not me anymore.
you made my life worth living for. my first born you thought me so much and continue to as a long to be as good of a person you were.
i miss your smile haveing around the house, i miss dreamig of what you kids would look like.
all of that was taken away from us sept 23 2006. I miss you so much my sweet son nothing can explain what lossing you has ment.
Sleep peacefully angel.
Your Handsome!
Your Lovely, Kind Mother Has Been Very Nice To Me and My Daughter, So I'm Leaving My Respects To You, And Your Beautiful Mother. May God Treat You Kind xxx
And To The Mum Of This Gorgeous Boy,
Thank You :)
My heart goest out to you at the loss of your Son Joshua, I know your pain from one mum to another my thoughts are with you God bless Joshua xx
mi amor
my sweet son saturdays are so hard as i relive every mimute of your last hours with me. i can taste the agaony of trying to get you help and not getting it. i miss you so much every instant you are in my thoughts and as i look, talk or listen to other i am thinking my sons gone forever. it seems so hard to believe still. we luv and miss you so much. i hope i have the chance to see you again some day. sweet dreams my luv, mami
a new year
for 17 years i laughed of the joy of being a mother yet for the past two new years i have cryed my loss. i had the most caring son anyone could dream for yet for me it wasn't a dream, it was true. such a respecful, humble loving son, grandson, brother and friend. you have changed our lives forever. today 1 jan. 2008 i can't find happiness in celebrating a year past without you and a new year can't bring you back. how can my broken heart mend if this can't be undone. your fam is heart broken with out you a piece of the puzzle taken forever. i just can't see the light as this tunnel has no end.
i luve you son as i did the day you were born and will until the i die.
son
son there is not a day i don't cry over lossing you, my heart just can't stop hurting. i continue to play the roll of being OK while i am falling apart. oh such a beautiful son. i luv you so much i can't believe your gone, gone forever, never again will i hear you call me mom, oh God help me help me understand. without you in my life there will never be happyness. i luv you son i luv you so much
Wish list.
Maria I have just read your beautiful poem Wish List on a little ones GTS site.
My daughter Rebecca was taken from us 24 weeks ago.
The words are so true and is every thing I feel and think each day.
I am not going to say your son Joshua is in a better place as we mothers know their place is with us.
Love to you and your family.
Lynn xxxxxxxxxxxx
god it hurts
I SAID, “GOD I HURT,”
AND GOD SAID, “I KNOW,
”
I SAID, “GOD I CRY A LOT”
AND GOD SAID, “THAT IS WHY I GAVE YOU TEARS,
”
I SAID,”GOD I AM SO DEPRESSED”
AND GOD SAID, “THAT’S WHY I GAVE YOU SUNSHINE,
”
I SAID “GOD LIFE IS SO HARD”
AND GOD SAID,”THAT’S WHY I GAVE YOU LOVED ONES,
”
I SAID,”GOD MY LOVED ONE DIED”
AND GOD SAID “SO DID MINE,
”
I SAID, “GOD IT IS SUCH A LOSS”
AND GOD SAID”I SAW MINE NAILED TO A CROSS,
”
I SAID,”BUT GOD, YOUR LOVED ONE LIVES,”
AND GOD SAID “SO DOES YOURS,”
I SAID “GOD WHERE ARE THEY NOW?”
AND GOD SAID “MINE IS ON THE RIGHT AND YOURS IS IN THE LIGHT,”
I SAID “GOD IT HURTS”
AND GOD SAID “I KNOW”
So Deeply sorry on your loss
Dearest Maria, I am so sorry for your loss your son was such a good looking young man - so young..... in the prime of his life.. my heart goes to you and your beloved family -
Remember that those who leave us in the springtime of their lives, will greet us again someday, in a land where springtime is eternal.
My prayers are with you and your family.
With lots of love and carexxxx
Isabelle (Natassia da Silva Mom)
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