| Location | Aguada Puerto Rico |
| Age | 17 years |
| Cause of Death | Rare Heart Condition |
| Date of Birth | 03/12/1988 |
| Date of Death | 23/09/2006 |
| Visitors | 9,214 since 26/06/2007 |
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Joshua Renoir Perez Bonilla left to live with the lord on sept.23 06 at the age of 17. He lives on
by his mom Maria , only sis Azharia, 2 sets of grandparents ,aunts, uncles and several cousins. He
lived all his life in Aguada Puerto Rico.Joshua was a good kid healthy ,strong so smart but most of
all respectfull to all old and young. He was an animal lover and just luvd our dog nasha. At the age
of 17 he had his car but had no interest in getting his permit yet said "I have all my life to
drive" he walked to school and to work with his grandpa Jr. and was not into "PARTYING" He helped
take care of his sis while I worked it was just the 3 of us for eachother.Josh had been feeling
unwell flu lik n head aches didn't seem urgent.On Sun. Sept. 17, 06 we had a pool party for Azharia
at a near by hotel Josh helped like usual stayed so we could get ready. When I got back he was in
the pool I thought he feels better. Went home early with my mom to see a NY game. On Tues. I took
him to his Dr. she send to have some lab test. Thurs. labs say virus, rest and lots to drink. Fri.
at home ate some salmon an rice. Sat. Sept.23 06, about 1am Joshua went down stairs n was trowing up
n fell flat to the floor, in 17 y I never called his dad but this time I did his father came bathed
him gave some power aid and I took him to my room to watch over him. Within 2 hrs he was n the bath
room 3 more times blacking out, this is only the begining of my nightmare. I decides to take him to
the closest ER, 3 min away. As we got there Josh was the only patient, his blood presure was a mess,
they couldn't draw blood for several min. Yet layed him on a bed with some IVS . Startes to have
chest pains to what the Dr. said nothing and that was that the next thing I know he was sent home.
At home he could not take the pain so I called his Dr. and she sent us back to the ER, this time I
went to an other, here he was all over the floor of the pain, we waited about 40min. and where told
to wait. In my attempt to help my son I took him to a 3rd ER where they were waiting for him. At
around 11:30 am Joshua started telling me "Mom u have been so good to us and I'm going to die" "Mom,
I'm dieing the pain is to much" "Mom tell Azharia I luv here so much" u can imagine I beg for help
but was told to wait. Whwn my mother arrived he said "gradma I'm dieing" to what she went crazy and
asked why no test had been run and where told to wait. Than she told me to call a friend Dr. to see
if he could help, he was on his way to the ER I was before so I took my son again, this time his
breaths were cutting short we arrived 20min. later my son was gone forever.Autopsy natural
death/virus. No one is responsible a curupt society takes no responsibility.
I lost my son the day after you lost yours, and tomorrow will be a year since I layed him to rest. So I feel I know partly how you feel.
It angers me so much when hospitals will not take responsibility for their own negligence.
Joshua looks a lovely lad and you must be so proud of him. Remember you will always be in my thoughts and my heart goes out to you and your family.
'We cannot judge a biography by its length,
By the number of pages in it.
We must judge it by the richness
of its contents.
Sometimes those unfinished are among the most beautiful'
All the best Anna X
oh Maria, such sadness every mother who has lost a child weeps with you we know how you feel it hurts so much when people say get on with it and time to move on it is like someone has ripped out a part of you and never came back to apoligise for the terrible thing they just done. We are just left bewildered, Why? I am so far from you yet i feel your pain like you were here. my prayers are with you and Ahzaria and also with Joshua Please take care Maria
my dear son
today a year ago we layed you to rest i go back and can't help but want to try to see just one last time. i know your soul rests in peace and that is why i cry not for you but for me. for me because i can't see you when i wake up or go to sleep, for me because i can't hear you call me MOM, i cry for me because i luv and miss you so. if only i would have known i would have held you so tight, i would have givin you the air i breath, the beats of my heart if only i would have known. i believe you are resting and better then i, but i cry for me lossing you has broken my heart, hurt my soul. you are the best and now your gone. i don't know how to accept this yet i made to. my son my luv you gave me the purist luv of all, you are my life.
for joshuas mom
I lose my grip on reality
on each day that passes by;
I haven't a clue where I'm headed
oh how this pain makes me cry
My world is changing so quickly
and I'm losing everything in sight;
Why can't things go back to how it used to be
so that everything would be alright
Why do we have to lose the ones we love
it's just not fair, it's just not right;
Oh why God do you take them
can't you see, I'm filled with fright
The days come and go
but the pain, it stays forever;
It never really leaves your soul
when you know, you'll no longer be together
Your heart, it's ripped wide open
and even though you try to hide;
It will break and bleed continuously
and feel as though it will never subside
I can take this pain no longer
oh how it's killing me inside;
What suffering we have to go through
when the ones we love, have died
yesterday was a saddest day for me to
knowing I was there i touched your cheek
i held you when you wept
when you stared into space I was there
I was standing just in front of you mom
Iwanted you to know
i thank you for all the years
you held me when i needed it
you cuddled me
you loved me unconditionally
you fed me
you scolded me when i done wrong
you taught me right from wrong
you made me humble loving and giving
it takes a special mum to make someone like that
and i thank you for making me the person that i am
dont let our home have that empty space
fill it with love for ahzaria the way you did for me
Im still with you mom you are my pride and joy
for ever and ever
my precious son
yesterday was a sad day realizing you are gone and never coming back, i thought about all the doors that were closed to us that day and can't understand why. i worked so hard to raise a good man someone that would make a difference in others lives, i wanted u to be a good son,brother,grandson, husband, father but didn't get the chance to all. yet in 17y 9 months 20 days u did make a difference you with your humble, luving and giving was. you are remembered as ' a special person' ' giving' ' humble'. i am so proud of u you may have had reasons not to be this way but you choose to be different. i miss you so much, my life will forever be incomplete. i will miss hearing you call me 'mom', this home will forever have an empty space. you are my pride and joy for ever and ever!!! i luv u son i luv u so much!!
joshua
Joshua's mom my heart truley go's out to you , you tryed so hard to help your treasured son , and you got know where how wicked and cruel this world is.its total DEVASTION to lose your son [i know] life just is'nt the same your not living you are existing , how can you live when something has devastating has this has happened to you . from the bottom of my heart i feel for you im so so so sorry . i lost my only darling treasured son to cancer within 4 weeks , i have a wonderful daughter but their is no life for me without my boy i thought the world of [ thinking of you xxx]
How quickly can you miss someone
A week,an hour,a day,
We started missing you Joshua
The minute you went away.
We try to come to terms with it
And accept that you have gone,
But without you life is not the same
It's such a struggle to go on.
We think God must have looked down
And seen how good you were
And he needed a special angel
To lend a hand up there.
It's the only thing we can think of
What other reason could there be?
We just wish He'd send you home
And from this heartbreak we'd be free.
thanking everyone for thier support
i would like to thank everyone that has taken the time to light or tribute my son. this has been the hardest year of my life. trying to continue as if nothing has happened is something i will never understand. everyday i come to this site to find confort in your word and i do, for this i thank you from deep within my soul. Lillias, Carol(tommys mom), Marion, Sophie,Jayne,Mandi,Vicky, Tracy to name a few tank you. And to Deb and Carol (Jordans nana)special thanks because you have been here constantly holding my hand, i pray God blesses you all in a special way.
Thank you all and God bless!
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